Sunday, May 27, 2012

Day 143 to Day 149: 'Weather Forecast'

Day 149: May 26, 2012
Like a little child, I depend on my father for courage and strength. My father’s assuring words put a stop to my sobbing heart. Finally, after a long hiatus, my father and I were able to truly communicate.   

Day 148: May 25, 2012
A memorable Good Friday.

Day 147: May 24, 2012
A not so very good news back home knocked me down…
"...and a sword will pierce through your own soul also..."(Lk 2.35) and it hurts me more than I can bear..."My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me? Why art thou so far from helping me, from the words of my groaning?" (Ps 22.1).'Lord, I know that your LOVE is healing!'

Day 146: May 23, 2012

An intelligent Philosophy professor just went a bit over the top in class today. His rhetoric blahs were lengthy and boring and no substance at all. Poor us, we have to deal with it.

Day 145: May 22, 2012
Sunny Monday, rainy Tuesday…what’s for Wednesday?

Day 144: May 21, 2012
I worked hard all day by putting the right attitude to get Hebrew lessons done. The road to finish is still way too far but I’m grateful I’m on the road and moving into that direction.

Day 143: May 20, 2012
Parting is never easy but it is inevitable. One should go and the other should be left behind. For those who are not prepared, the pain is excruciating but for those who while they are still together treasured each moment and invested on happy memories, parting will still be painful but one knows that everything will be alright. It is precisely the assurance that ‘I will be with you ‘til the end of time’ which helps someone gain back inner peace and joy, and go on with life. 

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Day 142: Dance with my father again…

"I hate my father." That’s a big word and definitely very impolite to say. It is even comparable to a curse because it is coming from me, a son of my father. But how can I wish to dance with my father whom I remember from my childhood memory as being very strict, manipulative and uncaring? He deserves every bit of harshness there is in that word since it was from him that I have learned it first. How certain I am that I will be better off without him. Or am I?

But I realized that this is the trick of the devil – to present me only the one side of the coin or convince me that there is in fact only one side of the coin. To judge my father as what my adversary is trying to persuade me is to admit that in truth I do not really know my father, thus in all angles I am culpable of disrespect and arrogance for saying that ‘I hate my father.’

But the word of God is on my rescue, ‘a lamp to my feet and a light for my path’ (Ps 119.105). With God’s word everything takes a new meaning because truth and goodness are revealed and made manifest. I am like the prodigal son in the Gospel of Luke who because of unknowing and arrogance considered his father ‘dead’ by asking his part of the inheritance (Lk 15.12). Even when he came into his senses and decided to come back to his father’s house that he showed how one-sided his knowledge of his father is (Lk 15.19).

I could imagine the impact in his mind and heart realizing that his father did not even let him finish his repentance speech but immediately embraced him, ordered that he be clothed and to prepare a great feast for him. He remains a son to his father even in his thought he no longer deserved to be one. It is through the humility, by the mercy and compassion of the father that the son’s ‘coming into his senses’ took its real and full meaning – that he knows now his father would not trade him for the world (for whatever prevailing and conventional opinion there is on the matter). Now, he knows him well as loving, merciful and compassionate father.

In the same way, what I remember of my father as uncaring, controlling and unbending only shows my opinionated ignorant mind which for so several years has locked me up. Now I want to liberate myself from the bondage of being a prodigal son, who considers my father as worthless, and instead celebrate with him as he celebrates for having me; to free myself from the trick of the devil that love is not possible to turn the tables; to finally come into my senses in the real sense of the word that my father shares the love, mercy and compassion of ‘Our Father’ in heaven.

This truth I know and believe from the Incarnated Word of God who says, “I have said this to you in figures; the hour is coming when I shall no longer speak to you in figures but tell you plainly of the Father.(Jn 16.25)   

Friday, May 18, 2012

Day 129 to Day 141: A lot of 'Catching Up'

Day 141: May 18, 2012
TGIF.


Day 140: May 17, 2012
Dinner with Noel and Ditas.


Day 139: May 16, 2012
I had my first mass in ‘Italian.’ My nerves got me but I managed to do well. It was a humbling experience and I would be more appreciative and prepared in other opportunities to come. For this, I received a very generous privilege from my Savior and Lord.

I went to the celebration of Sr Esperanza’s golden anniversary in the religious life with Sr Mae, RVM. I met with the other Dominican fathers and sisters along with the priests-residents at the Pontificio Collegio Filipino. It was a warm and happy gathering especially to Sr Esperanza whom the priests at the Collegio referred to as a model of holiness, beauty and happiness. 


Day 138: May 15, 2012
Through facebook I sent my ‘Happy Mother’s Day’ greeting to all the mothers whom I have met and known. I started to make a video clip which I plan to send them as a simple gesture of how I appreciated their care and support all these years. I know the celebration is over but my intention remains true, and that what counts most. I hope to finish and send them the clip within this month of May, then that’s still ‘valid.’


Day 137: May 14, 2012
Energetic.


Days 134-136: May 11 – 13 Germany Trip (Mainz – Frankfurt)
This is my first trip to Germany. I booked my ticket two months ago to attend the sacerdotal ordination of Rev Frank of the German Dominican Province of Teutonia whom I met in Cairo Egypt back in 2009. I will fly to Frankfurt then will go either by train or by car to Mainz where the ordination will take place.


I barely had a decent sleep last night and had to get up early to reach the airport before the start of ‘sciopero.’ (strike of PUB) The flight was delayed by twenty minutes due to the late boarding of some three passengers. We left Fiumicino airport at 9:25 am. I did not take any food in the airport because I thought we will have a nice refreshment in the plane but unfortunately they only served us a cup of soda and a small pack of salty biscuit, worse they served it an hour after we took off.


Frank picked me from the airport as promised. It was good to see him again. We drove straight to the priory, had lunch with the brothers and then brought me to the hotel next to the parish where he will be ordained tomorrow. I had to stay in the hotel along with all the other guests (including the three German friars at the Angelicum who also came to attend the ordination) since the priory has no enough space to accommodate guests. The three star hotel was not bad and the good thing was it is not far either from the priory or the main train station.


At three o’clock I was ready with my camera to discover the city. Frank was very apologetic to me because he could not accompany me as I tour around the city, which I completely understand. He should be relaxing from this time on because tomorrow is his ‘wedding.’ I have been to a similar situation almost two years ago and I assured him that he doesn't need to worry about me. I can manage to find the city which is not big and complicated, and that I will definitely consume all my time taking photos while experiencing the life of the people of Mainz.


I did take hundreds of pictures. Everything is new to me and the surrounding just amazes me. This is one of the best parts of travel – you are able to see things the first time and appreciate the wonder they offer. I tried the local bread, pizza and ice cream. I even entered a supermarket just to know what they sell. Finally I ended up getting a haircut for 13 euro. Not bad.


Ordination Day. I met with Max, Carsten and Walter who all belong to the same Province as Frank’s and living at the Angelicum. Obviously I found myself in the middle of German speaking crowd. I didn’t understand a word. The liturgy was very ‘neat.’ They started and finished on time. The music was splendid. I have to ask the brothers how did the homily of His eminence go and I got a favorable response. I was also told that His eminence has a soft heart with the German Dominicans, evidenced of his presence today. After the Mass I quickly grabbed myself a hot soup and the finger food they have prepared which served as my dinner (for last night) and brunch (for today). The food was delicious, none of them can be found at the Angelicum refectory (seriously!), not even the good German beer.


Later, Max was kind enough to tour me to the city, explaining to me some of the historical highlights of the city. Yesterday was more of grabbing photos, today is the lecture. Thank you Max!



Off to Frankfurt. I will meet Max at the direction he pointed to me yesterday. I got an eight o’clock train to catch and I know I have to be there on time. I did. However, I had the difficulty in buying the ticket. I could not find what Max had taught me yesterday. It should not be a big deal but at this time I only got ten minutes left. Some good hearts  helped me ‘maneuvered’ the ticket machine and was able to get one, not exactly  what Max had showed me, but just for the heck of getting in the train. I even paid more. Anyway, I literally rushed to the deck floor in order not to miss the train. Upon reaching the deck, just to be sure that I got the right platform, I asked a gentle lady beside me, showing her my 'ticket.' Then the ‘freaking out’ moment happened. I apparently do not have a ticket. What I had was not a ticket but a ‘travel plan’ which anyone can get for free from any ticket machine in all stations. Another kind lady intervened and affirmed that I do not have a ticket.


But I argued that I asked the man in the information counter to help me buy the ticket from the machine; that I paid 10.40 euro and took 'this' ticket from the machine. While we were discussing on this, presto, the train arrived! The ladies told me to go back to the machine and find my ticket but to do that is to miss this train. I saw how tremendously sorry they were for my fate but I understand that that is the best thing they can do. I asked if I can buy the ticket in the train but they said it is not possible and if ever I get caught without a valid ticket I would have to pay a 40 euro fine.  I made a quick decision to take my chances thinking should I be caught I will try my best to negotiate because it was really an honest mistake on my part, but at the same time settle without regret to pay the damage done and charge it to experience. Anyway, while in the train I tried to convince myself that everything will fall into places.




And the moment of truth came...in the middle of the trip, a young lady approached me showing her ID which at first I thought she’s just asking for some money, to which I replied no. When she asked (for) ‘your ticket’ I knew that ‘this is it, my time has come!’ I calmly gave her what I had and she immediately told me that it was not the ticket. I can see how tense the two ladies who helped me a while ago, who by the way were seated next to my seat when the young girl called the officer and told him the problem. In chorus, the two ladies and another kind lady who heard our conversation (because while in the train, I once again explained to the two ladies how I got into this trouble) explained to the officer in their native language what happened to me. Then I said the same thing to the officer and I apologized for my ignorance. Thankfully he was convinced that it was an honest mistake on my part so he only charged me 4.10 euro for the ticket. I can’t thank him enough for his generosity, but most especially for the three ladies', who intervened on my behalf. Such nice people, God bless them!


Of course I have to tell Max what happened, and he congratulated me for having the ‘good luck’ on my side. He said it rarely happens in Germany that one can easily get through a trouble (and fine) like that. Now I can relax and enjoy the financial capital of Germany, the city of Frankfurt.





Again, Max told me the historical importance of the city, where by the way he was born and raised in. We literally encircled the city which allowed me to see the combination of modern and centuries old architecture, basilicas on the one side and the financial modern building on the other. The great part of the experience was we were able to con-celebrate the Sunday Mass at the Cathedral of Frankfurt, who was once a seat of the Holy Roman Empire in Germany. Obviously, I didn't understand a word in German but I am fully convinced that I know what is going on during the celebration. After that, we met with his friend and had a sumptuous brunch. Then I spent the remaining two hours taking photos. Then off to the airport.

Day 133: May 10, 2012
Today I celebrate my 10th year as a Dominican professed religious. We were fifteen who made our first profession to the Order of Preachers in Manaoag, Pangasinan (Philippines). Eight of us were ordained priests of whom two joined the Diocese. Looking back, it was a journey of mutual effort and support, on our part and on the part of God. I continue to humbly ask the grace of our Lord without which I can do nothing, through the intercession of our Blessed Mother Mary, and through the prayers of St Dominic and His saints in heaven and on earth.


Day 132: May 09, 2012
There is so much to do as I prepare for the exam next month. Most of the brothers in the community are on the move to finishing the semester. I served as deacon in today’s mid-noon Italian Mass. As deacon, I have to read the Gospel and the prayers of the faithful, and also to assist the priest especially in the preparation of the gifts. My nerves got me as I mispronounced some words and forgot to follow some ‘procedures.’ Well, there’s always the first time and my consolation is that you can never do it perfectly by one time. However, there is no room for alibi and complacency.   It should be 'flawless' the next time.


Day 131: May 08, 2012
I had a class today with Rabbi Jack Bemporad on Jewish-Christian dialogue. I had attended a different course with him last semester and it was a privilege to be listening to his lectures because he speaks from the heart and straight into your soul. The Rabbi is without a doubt a man of deep spiritual conviction, someone dignified and has a heart for compassion and grace. Moreover, he teaches straight from his abundant experience both as a Rabbi and as a professor which makes learning an avenue for growth and transformation.  


Day 130: May 07, 2012
I spent most of my day getting back to Hebrew lesson. I must say reviewing my past lessons is not so difficult at all. It remains a big challenge but it’s no longer a ‘hopeless’ endeavor. Besides, my visit to Israel helped me to set the mood to focus and get things done. I’m glad it is finally sinking into me.

Day 129: May 06, 2012
Fifth Sunday of Easter.

Friday, May 4, 2012

Day 127: Response and Responsibility

The new Rector of the Angelicum University (Pontifical University of St. Thomas Aquinas), Rev. Miroslav Konštanc Adam, O.P , took his oath  today at the University's grand hall. A Cardinal and a Bishop including Ambassadors, Professors, Dominican friars, priests, nuns and apostolic sisters, students and other guests witnessed the ceremony. The Vicar to the Master of the Order, Fr Edward Ruane, OP, was also present in behalf of the Master of the Order, Fr Bruno Cadore, OP. 

Fr Adam reiterated in his speech that he will continue to strengthened the Catholic status of the Pontifical University. He also invited the faculty and students to participate in this endeavor through collaboration, mutual respect and filial support. He also entrusted such a task through the help of the patron of the University, St Thomas Aquinas. 

Fr. Adam was the Dean of the Faculty of Canon Law at the Angelicum before his confirmation as the new rector and serves as a professor on the Faculty of Eastern Canon Law at the Pontifical Oriental Institute in Rome.  He is a Dominican priest of the Province of Slovakia.

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Day 126: Seeing

Each time we sin we lose the opportunity to be in the state of grace. Being in the state of grace is being able to see Jesus and sees him as He is. Seeing Jesus as He is brings about transformation and conversion of oneself, our desire, even our heartbeat as His. The heart that beats for and with Jesus pumps out and supplies love to the whole person. Through His mercy and compassion, a grace in themselves,  we find ourselves in the state of sin no more and and once again claim the state by which we were made for - grace.

Day 125: Unwell

Here I go again, after getting back to the rhythm I am down again with flu-like symptoms. Of course my bad. I braced the cold weather last night, wearing an sport undershirt and a short-sleeved polo. I was offered my winter jacket by the couple (I had them dry cleaned and asked their favor to store them until I return from my trips) but I refused thinking my body still carries the heat in Israel and that was enough to keep me warm. Regrets, I have a few and some more...it was really cold and I have felt it by the time I got into my room that I'll be unwell tomorrow. And so the prediction is on. Without any hesitation, I took a cold med tablet before Vespers and another one after dinner, then off to bed. 

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Day 124: Labor Day

It's holiday. I am glad to have another day 'off.' Feeling much better now, and with less errands to do, I managed to open my books. It was not difficult after all. It was tempting to go out and spend the holiday with friends and 'food' but I have felt my 'mood' wasn't ready for 'socialization' yet. Besides, there are too much files on my desk to accomplish. I may sound exaggerating but how can I better describe it? Anyway, I managed to have dinner with the KS group (although most of them have already gone home). It was nice catching up stories with them. Starting tomorrow, I am off to a 'serious battle.' Good luck to me. 

Day 123: Getting back to the Rhythm

Feeling exhausted, I managed to run some errands starting from my laundry to my bills. I tried to open my books but my body needed some 're-hydration more than I imagined.' I didn't even eat and sleep well, probably because of the recent 'too much' activities. I hope to feel better sooner. Classes starts today and there is no room for complacency. I have got to get going or find myself 'crying over spilled milk.'


It's weird, rather quiet in the 'neighborhood,' Or was it me getting used to 'noises?' Anyhow, the feeling wasn't right.